Family

Were born, we live, and then we die. During the time in between you can either live this life along or you can be with people. Being with people is hard; it takes work. Most are alone in this life because they found living with others too hard and then gave up or they could not see beyond their own selfish needs. Whichever it is, it’s your choice.

One is the loneliest number that you’ll ever do and boy am I tired of doing it. Table for one please; the empty booth

across from you; the empty car seat; and the dreaded empty place in the pew. I have experience them all and it is no fun. It’s like when I went on business trips years back and would tour around on my time off and go to point at something of interest and realize the kid’s and Angie were not there to see it. I ache for my family and miss them. Family time is tough when you live states or miles apart.

You have to try harder to be together and you have to spend precious time and money to see each other. And when both are in rare supply the first thing sacrifice is time with family.

Time; I hate the restriction of it. Money; I hate the need for it. That is why I’m here now; I need money and benefits because my time is running out and I have little of it left on this earth. And I want that time not to be a burden to my wife or my family. So for now I’m here alone hoping all of it will be for something or mean something someday.

Since all this started the first time we moved out of state; I have put many a mile on cars, truck, you name it all just for a few moments with my family or for my children to have time with their grandparents. Now the grandparents are gone and I say it was time and money well spent. So what will the future hold and will you come and see me as much as I come to see you…..I can only hope and pray we continue to put the effort in as we did this last year and continue to do it before time slips away……..because it will slip away!